#10 逊透了!

dear shifu,

while i'm typing this away, you should be having loads of fun thousands miles away. but something happened today which really upset me and i just feel like typing my feelings and thoughts away bcos there's no one else who understand this matter better than you do.

today, yew centre has this teambuilding session organized by my principal. so all of us has to head back to centre in the afternoon even when we dont need to work. to start of this session, my principal got us to talk abt first impressions and introduce more about ourselves - which i really dread it coming.

the thing is that my principal doesnt know anything about my marriage cancellation and she still thought i'm going to get married sometime soon. so when they were sharing who is married, with how many children, who's not... blah blah blah

SUDDENLY, the arrow just came shooting into me. everyone is SOOOO interested in my status cos i' relatively new to them. at first i just replied that no i'm not married and i'm not getting married. i just smile off their questions and the topic was shifted over to someone else.
i was like so relieved!

BUT, not too long later. the cook went to ask if i got boyfriend and the limelight is on me once again. but before i could answer, my principal went to answer for me. she told everyone that i'm going to get married soon, of cos have boyfriend now!

for that moment, i really dont know how to react. all i remembered was that i could only smile, and just smile at everyone looking at me. i so wanted to tell them that i'm actually not but i didnt have the courage to open my mouth.

i really dont know how to tell them. i thought i wont need to share this with anyone anymore. i thought at this new workplace, nobody would know abt my past. but my principal just let everything out :((

so many questions were going through my mind.
what if when i told them i cancelled my wedding. they will ask why?
what if i told them i broke off with my fiance. they also will ask why?
whatever i say, i'm sure they will be curious why

i guess i'm still not ready to answer them or perhaps its bcos i felt that i'm not obligated to answer them ba. haiiss!

我很逊对不对?
我也是这样觉得.